July 2010
SOMEBODY FORCE ME TO READ!
I COULD FIND EXCUSES NOT TO FOR DAYS!
In the next week/weekend, I need to… -Finish Song of Solomon -Write an essay -Make my last post -Finish one last bio chapter -Study for tests in the first week of school -Prepare for newspaper and STAND -Hopefully get new makeup -Get school supplies
I am so tired of not having money, borrowing money, being depressed about my immediate future, feeling like there’s no time, feeling like I’m wasting time, wanting to be alone, wanting someone, wanting something, not having what I need, not seeing my parents, worrying, being moody, being hot, & not having good meals or good days.
I am so ready for expansion. My last few threads of...
One more thing:
I love the color gold.
I feel so weird…! Not physically, but emotionally. I don’t want to do anything. I can’t make decisions. I don’t feel like I’m completely conscious. I need something I can be full-heartedly excited about to kick me back into reality.
FORWARD
That's it.
I NEED TO LIVE IN FRANCE! GET ME TO FRANCE!
I had a dream last night that I ran away from...
It was awesome…for most of it. I was on my bike, riding downhill in some beachy town through a sunrise. I hadn’t slept the night before, but I had just taken a shower in a lake. Then, the police stopped me and took me home, which should’ve been like a day away, but it was only about 30 minutes. I don’t like dreams that don’t make sense, but clearly dreams never make...
Always getting edged out.
Because relationships translate so easily to competition.
I just caught a breeze of discontent. I want to be back in a foreign place, learning every minute about everything, everyone, and myself. The thought of not being around any technology sounds so appealing. I want my food to be something I have to accept in order to have any energy for the day, not an activity to partake in when I’m bored every 20 minutes. My body feels terrible, my mind even...
I am excited, I must say, for the new school year. Mostly and maybe only because then the anticipation and question of whether I’ll sink or float will be over. I also can’t wait for a couple weeks of school to pass, just so I can guess how the rest of the year will play out. I am excited for newspaper, because it’s what I enjoy using my time for. I am hopeful for STAND, because I...
I want in.
Watchletsrockthebeach:
You know those “Jesus is my homeboy” shirts that were big 5 years ago? Can I have a shirt that says “Patrick Stickles is my homeboy”?
I’ll get one that says “Annie Clark is my homegirl.”
WHAT IS MY PROBLEM?! I’ve basically only read up to chapter 3, when I should be 18 chapters into Song of Solomon. I just realized I’m supposed to bullshit another post before 12 tonight. I’m really baffled at myself right now. I’m never THIS far behind. And what’s worse is that I really want to just sit and cry about it, which is obviously pathetic to say the least. I...
Today was lovely. First, I put in some time at St. Vincent de Paul, bright and early. Then, I came home and set back out to check out the grand opening of H&M. Instead, we went to Buffalo. Good decision. I got a really awesome dress for under $10 and a really schnazzy black denim pencil skirt. I’m going back to school in such style (nonetheless, not happily). Now, I am setting out yet...
Swimming is nothing but the crest of human...
I'm naming my bike Beauregard.
Coffee tomorrow is going to be so lonely : (
UGH I AM GOING TO BE ON THIS DEGRASSI BOILING...
mamajayyy:
writingreen:
I only really care about the eventual lockdown.
I wish I had a Degrassi fan group of friends :’[
I love Zane and Riley’s relationship.
dittttto
Hellll yeaaah, except I hate Riley. Which is awkward, ‘cause then I seem like I hate gay people. Rest assured, world, I do not discriminate. I also hate Peter.
It’s a reading and baking day because it’s time for me to return to my balance I feel like I have easily lost.
Last night was good for reflection, but I hate how little of myself I can display. It’s so frustrating.
I am so tired of this weather & I need money.
-finish painting nails
-make mint melon salad
-get a new bathing suit
-read at some point
Up above, the world so high.
This is ridiculous. I need to get serious about something.
Fish sticks and french fries and Klondike Bars, Mom?! WHAT IS THIS?! WHAAAT IIIIS THIIIIS?!
Because of the Times.
Highlights of Summerfest:
-getting flowers from one of my favorite kids
-having a trunk car door come down on my head
-“I don’t like God, I like witches!”
-any moment Tony was behaving
-Zac & Nathan G’s adorable supremacy; Damion’s smartassness
-P-Money
-hanging out with Seamdawg & Dtrain in the craft room
-hotdog on a mission; every song in general...
-read like the wind, write apes post
-paint nails
-help my lil’ childrens with their performance
-do what it is that teenagers do at night
this is way too fun →
theoneswithnonames:
when you just click and drag your mouse on the squares, it makes just crazy random patterns. so awesome.
A kitten on fire. A baby in a blender. Both sound as sweet as a night of surrender. I know it ain’t easy, but you do what you can. If your livin’ gets wheezy, you can follow this plan: Put in more than you could ever get out. I’m tired of the talking. I know what you’re about. Now open your mouth, here comes the spoon. You’re gonna eat what I give you, and...
I don't want to be your friend
satelliteskin:
I just want to be your lover
No matter where it ends, no matter where it starts.
Nice.
Nice night.
Nice day.
Nice weekend.
Nice summer.
Nice life.
