August 2009
Mayra,
That’s sick. I am not a murderer.
Ailurophobia is the fear of cats.
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That would suck.
July 2009
Yeeeeeepyepyepyepyep...
That felt good.
Not sure about the circumstances…quite awkward, actually…but not as awkward as I thought… Inside, I’m beating myself up.
Entirely open day, tomorrow. What shall I do? I do not know. Maybe I’ll surprise myself by finishing my essay. I do not know.
Dreams are so unapologetic. I mean, there are just never any nice people in my dreams. Everyone’s really blunt and straightforward. I don’t know if I like it or not, but I think I like it.
I liked retreat team, today. Mainly because, lately, I’ve been feeling like I have no personality. I don’t know why; it’s a weird feeling to have. I don’t know how I even...
There's no wolfman growling at you in your closet.
There is no wolfman growling at you in your closet.
My only wish for the moment is that I could’ve been a part of The Cosby Show. That is my only wish.
Today’s been good. Tomorrow’s gonna be good. The next day’s gonna be good.
Hopes, hopes, hopes. I have hopes. High hopes. My ankles are caught in knotted ropes. And my head is tumbling down slippery slopes. My hands and...
Sorry, I'm deciding to change currents.
I just worked out with a DVD in my living room. Why didn’t I think of that, earlier?! It was so perfect. I feel so much better.
Today: Finish brainstorming ‘n such for essay Go swimming Paint nails Maybe work out some more/tivo some stuff from FitTv Relish these good feels
I need to get out of the house, though. I’d love to just take a walk around, but I know I’ll take...
I’m really annoyed at my perception of you. And I want to talk about it, but I’m worried I’ve blown things WAAAAAAAAAAY out of proportion and then I’ll seem crazy by the second sentence I speak. I don’t want to be crazy. I want to be normal. If not normal, then I’ll take the spot under the radar. I don’t care; I just want to stop thinking like this. ...
I’m not worried about school, but I’m worried about how I’ll feel once it starts. I don’t want to take chemistry or algebra becasue I know they’re going to be hard, and last year and the year before was so easy…I don’t know if I’ll be able to take it. I mean, I will. I’ll try and try because I’m deciding to be that kind of person this...
And again I’ve deemed myself pathetic.
“Have you ever fallen asleep with a boy on the floor?” - survey
That sounds so nice. Upon reading that strange question, I immediately fell into a trance of thoughts and feelings: soft, cushiony, clean carpet; the sound of another’s breathing pattern lulling me to sleep; the comfort of leisurely falling asleep in the middle of the day with no worries; being comfortable enough to...
Brunch says:
I’m so worried that I can’t speak.
But I could sink, I could sink, I could…
Dive inside me, assemble security.
I’m actually not worried. Not about anything. I’m what you would call “worry free in AZ.” I believe this summer’s been good to me. It’s sad that it’s coming to a quick finish, but I’m becoming excited for another year...
Sunrise says:
independence=happiness
I really want to go to the library, downtown, tomorrow. I also really want to go thrift shopping. I also really want some iced tea with honey. I want my sister back home.
I adore how
i love you
looks so innocent and so honest
I wish I saw it more often; recieving and presenting.
I can only hope
That I am wrong.
I can only hope that you’re different than I expect and that this situation won’t be like it always is.
I wish I weren’t so bummed all the time and I wish my cramps weren’t so randomly intense.
I’m afraid I’ll never remember to think.
Man, I love writing. And I love journalism…as long as I’m free to be extremely creative about it.
I just remembered that 4 people told me I look like Ginny Weasley. Life is great.
Skin, what are you thinking? I wash you every day, and still! Still, you blemish. I just don’t understand. Why must you be so different from others.
I have to charge my electronics.
Oh man, I hate people that have insanely loud and annoying laughs and never fail to laugh at things that aren’t funny. Especially when they are in the middle of an epic movie premier. But, I feel...
Oh dear.
I need to put together a costume of some sort! The day is drawing close and there’s so little time in between now and then to prepare!
So this week, I’m going to Summerfest for Monday and Tuesday from 8:45-12. I’m just a floating aid, this year, so I hope there are a lot of people that need help. Otherwise, I am going to be a pretty bored girl, walking from class to class and...
It seems to be
that whenever I hang out with numerous people surprisingly, I’m either unaware or self concious about the way I look. Most unfortunate, but oh well. I hate being a teenager just because there’s about 6% respect that we recieve out of 100%. I got mad and stuff today because I finally got to go to the mall and find a bathing suit, but 1. I couldn’t find any that I really liked, and...
Now I'm getting stressed.
I didn’t really realize until today that everything my summer’s basically been building up to is coming up in less than a week. Also, studying for the permit test is stressing me out, when I know it shouldn’t. Plus, I still have to write an essay, do my quote journal(kind of), and do about 11 chapter summaries. I have like 4 weeks or so, but I still feel like that’s not...
I just wish I wasn’t so damn depressed all the time. I didn’t know we got tsunami’s in Arizona…
This is officially my favorite ice cream.
Simply Said.
I was just realizing, last night, that the two closest people to me emotionally are now in two different states living new lives apart from mine. It just blew my mind. And the fact that I didn’t realize that until last night blew my mind. I didn’t make the connection that my sister and Tara were most similar to me, and now I can’t even remember that because we’re so far...
Changing Lanes.
In a effort of being optimistic! Another list.
Upcoming (exciting) Events: First Friday! The 4th of July! Jamie’s homecoming! Harry Potter premier! Summerfest! Journalism camp in Flag! And everything in between!
I wish Tara’s homecoming was on that list. I miss Bulbz.
Haha, nicknames! I love nicknames! Charmander=charmzies, Pikachu=pika, obviously, Squitle=squirtz, Bulbasaur=bulbz
...
I’m annoyed at myself, in a way. But that, my friends, is no surprise. I’m just annoyed that I’m letting this get to me…again. It’s been a while and it only lasted all of about 2 weeks or so, but I guess it’s more than that. It’s, as I would typically say, the principal of it all. Also, it’s the self-conscious side of my personality taking over my...
I can not properly express
how scared and worried I am that I will continue this laziness and inaction until I’m in too deep to retrieve what I was just last month. Time to start again with the lists.
I need to: -Either stop gaining weight or start losing weight.- Everyone around me, practically, is talking of fitness and actually acting on it, when I’m watching TV for hours on end and still hardly even...
